So this morning I had every intention of writing a devotional based on my own personal devotion time from this morning. Psalm 77 and Matthew 27 both spoke to me as I reflected on the fact that sometimes we feel God is far from us and has forsaken us. Of course we know that not to be the case, but it doesn’t stop us from feeling that way at times. When you get a moment read those passages and you will be comforted that even though the psalmist was experiencing what he felt was the “anger” of God because of the collective disobedience of the children of Israel, he had to still remember what God had brought them from, what God was capable of doing and the wonderful mercies that God had bestowed on them in spite of them! We all feel that God has turned his back on us when we are going through rough patches, even Jesus proclaimed from Calvary, Why has thou forsaken me? He knew that God had not really forsaken him but had to allow him to suffer the anguish of all of our sins so that we didn’t have to pay for them ourselves. There was, indeed, purpose in the pain! Take a moment to meditate on those scriptures, I hope that it blesses you as much as it blessed me.
Well, I didn’t write a devotional dedicated to those scriptures because after my devotional time, my plans were foiled as I began one project to find out it had turned into two more! This summer I have dedicated myself to upgrading my websites and broadening my outreach to the Christian community – it’s what I do – it’s what I love to do. My only concern is that I don’t take on more than I can really handle and that I know that I know that I know that the things I’m involved with are really what God has told me to do! That’s a slippery slope when there is so much that you want to do – but being faithful in what is ordained by God is more important than being a jack of all trades. Balance is a word that I seek to master….I’m working on it!
Today my daughter called me and I helped her pick out her classes for her first year of college! WOW! the time has flown and I cannot believe that she is leaving me. Each day is a constant reminder but I still don’t think it has sunk in yet! I know she is probably looking forward to the day when she won’t be reminded about doing dishes or asked to do some chore or having to ask permission to go places – I remember what that was like! lol At the end of the day all you can hope for is that you have taught them lessons that they will carry throughout their lives and that they will make healthy and wise choices…..Uhm….how did that work out for us??? lol
On another note, the hubby and I watched The Godfather for the millionth time yesterday! Anyone who knows me knows that it is my favorite movie – I cannot explain it, it must be the sociologist in me – but I love the complexity of the relationships and the loyalties and crazy reasonings that go behind the action! It’s life right? It is about our insecurities, and our self-worth, our pain and our need to belong…ultimately it is about how we really look before a holy God! Oh, yes, you can see theology in a lot of stuff if you look hard enough!
Until next time